Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Huh?

If the good lord had intended for me to be a programmer I sincerely believe he would have given me the brains for it. So why, then, is heavy technical stuff the only thing that seems to be offered to me?

The things I'm good at, or at least inclined for, are an endless uphill struggle from hell. Yet, the things I abhor, and am no good at, are the things that seem to fall into place. At the new job they want to move me into heavy, heavy tech stuff and are opening all kinds of doors for me. SQL? Here Eris! We'll train you, certify you and let you do whatever you want! Please! We think you are brilliant! Um? YIKES.

People. I can program ATM code like it is going out of style but that was based on necessity. Remember how long it took me to figure out basic html in the old (beloved) blogger? How long it took me to build a link list in my sidebar? Now imagine me building code for a STATE WIDE system that thousands of users will depend on. Crap people Crap.

Life is weird. You set out to do one thing and it pushes you toward another. I'm an English and Spanish major working on networking.

I'll never figure this out.

2 comments:

sallyacious said...

Think of it this way. You actually have a work ethic. That puts you ahead of the curve for pretty much any job you take.

HollowSquirrel said...

Oh sweetie. Sounds like a job I had back in another state...and then I took a similiar yet even more techy job in a different state...and then when I moved to NY, I did more of the same. Then I freaked out, dropped my salary and job like a hot rock & went to grad school. I didn't want to wake up to be bitter & ugly like my boss, who also hated our jobs.

What's my point? I don't know. I just want you to be happy & financially stable. I hope you can find a way. I'm with Sallyacious-- that's a huge step ahead of most people nowadays who expect a salary for showing up.