Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Celibacy is not so great as you would think it would be. yeah.

Is it possible to have a borderline non-sexual crush on someone? I mean, let's say that you enjoy talking with them, flirting with them, emailing them etc. Your day brightens when you know you will see them. You even get butterflies being close to them. But you absolutely cannot see yourself in a sexual situation with them? They are of the gender you are attracted to, they smell nice, have good hair and yet...nothing.

This is a whole new crush category for me. I'm not sure what to think. I can't even imagine kissing them. Every day relationships with other humans get a little weirder for me. Of course, it has been over a year now since I kissed anybody (much less anything else) so maybe I'm just confused and slipping into nun mode.

In other news I'm doing pretty good on the Different Thing Every Day goal. Today I went to the gym. That isn't different in that I haven't done it before but it is different in that I didn't come home and pass out in a pile of empty wine bottles and pizza boxes. Yay for me! I would like my next different thing to be make out with somebody, oh for the love of gob, almost anybody, but please make him cute and non-committal and it would be kind of great if I never saw him again. Whew. I guess I haven't totally lost my sex drive.


Anonymous said...

I think that's kind of weird... I'll admit it. You can't imagine kissing them? I think you need a battery-operated toy to help you kickstart your sex drive.

Maya said...

Celibacy is over rated, for sure.... As is coupledom/dating;) I do think your next make out should be totally no-pressure/expectations for sure!