In between the weird way they paid my last check at my last job because I was salaried and the very bad way they are going to pay me at my new job because I am hourly I am going to be shorted a thousand dollars for the month.
Let me repeat that: One THOUSAND DOLLARS.
I am so infinitely screwed. I really, really hate the universe; more than words can describe even. The phrase I am so fucked has never rang more true. To say that I am more than just a little freaked out would also be true. Ironically I took the new job because it paid a little more and now it will take me literally months to even get back to the level where I was before the job change, never mind that I will not get to notice the difference in pay for nearly a year just to make up for this gap.
Im taking it a wee bit, okay, colossally, bad because I now genuinely believe that everything I do, will do, or have ever done and that I am always permanently fucked.
Im this close to the edge people.
So close to the edge, in fact, that Im seeking professional help. Well see how that goes. In the meantime I cant use the internet at work, I cant order internet for home (hello negative cash flow) and my laptop isnt working so hot so wifi is going to be a bit touchy. Um, extended blog vacation yet again? Except this time with more clinical depression and suicidal ideations? Yeah. Great. Ill think of something. In the meantime please visit the people on my blogroll. I miss them and they will need company while I am sorting my freaking joke of a hellish life out.