Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Oh dear.

In between the weird way they paid my last check at my last job because I was salaried and the very bad way they are going to pay me at my new job because I am hourly I am going to be shorted a thousand dollars for the month.

Let me repeat that: One THOUSAND DOLLARS.

I am so infinitely screwed. I really, really hate the universe; more than words can describe even. The phrase “I am so fucked” has never rang more true. To say that I am more than just a little freaked out would also be true. Ironically I took the new job because it paid a little more and now it will take me literally months to even get back to the level where I was before the job change, never mind that I will not get to notice the difference in pay for nearly a year just to make up for this gap.

I’m taking it a wee bit, okay, colossally, bad because I now genuinely believe that everything I do, will do, or have ever done and that I am always permanently fucked.

I’m this close to the edge people.

So close to the edge, in fact, that I’m seeking professional help. We’ll see how that goes. In the meantime I can’t use the internet at work, I can’t order internet for home (hello negative cash flow) and my laptop isn’t working so hot so wifi is going to be a bit touchy. Um, extended blog vacation yet again? Except this time with more clinical depression and suicidal ideations? Yeah. Great. I’ll think of something. In the meantime please visit the people on my blogroll. I miss them and they will need company while I am sorting my freaking joke of a hellish life out.


sallyacious said...

A couple of thoughts:

1) professional help = good

2) public libraries usually have free internet access.

The money thing really sucks. I'm sorry to hear you're having to deal with that. If you work for an organization that pays you b-weekly, and because of the way the system works, also pays you basically a month after the fact (your first pay period ends two weeks after you start, and you get paid 2 weeks after that because of the way our billing/financial process works) which I'm guessing they do, take heart: because of the way the calendar year works, you'll have a couple of 3-paycheck months.

So@24 said...

i don't know if i can survive another blog vacay.

but i love me a good blogroll.

Maya said...

My darlin, now I feel REALLY COLLOSSALLY BAD that I left you that chirpy little message the other day. Do what you must and hopefully you'll get a bonus/3 paycheck weeks like sallyacious said.

Anonymous said...

Well, I don't know where you work, but would you consider filching office supplies and selling them on e-bay? Just kidding. Sort of. If I took a paycut that big, I would have to have an old school tantrum - the flinging of shoes, crying, sobbing, hysterical kind. Then a long nap, followed by coffee ice cream. Feel free to try any of my remedies and feel better.

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